Germaphobia

Okay, I think I have over-emphasized cleaning up after my cat, because its not just him but the crumbs from Winter's food and stuff that hasn't been vaccuumed in a while.  I would also like to say that with my first bout when I got home I slept with my cat almost every night, so I'm not worried about that so much.

 Also, the last time I was getting sick it was because I was already so sick and getting fevers and such, and they were cleaning my red and swollen line wound everyday, opening it up to germs, and leaving the ends open and vulnerable, also, all I had was a surgical mask to protect me, not a filtered 3M one like I have now.

I ALSO didn't get from anything around me because my family is amazing and super clean, and good to me.  I got sick from bacteria that is totally normal to be in your own body, with the thrush, the normal germs in my mouth and with my stomach and totally normal bacteria that helps break up food.  The point is, even after all the clean up, and the evasive stuff, I want to return home to a clean environment, but I'm not negating the things that bring me joy when I'm sick, because otherwise, I might as well live in a bubble.

I will have a low immune system for an indeterminable amount of time, until I've had a transplant.  I can spend it in a hospital by myself all day walking three miles, or I can go home and come back when I need to and be happier to spend the time with who and what I love.

I love you all, and I have 50 people trying to do whatever they can do to  help all the time, who are already watching my daughter, bringing food, making sure I have all the things I need to be comfortable, and I will keep everyone updated with what they can do to keep helping.  I also have been personally applying for grants, medical deferments and assistance with bills, and cannot see a time in the near future where I think I'm going to lose my home.  So whoever is spreading that crap around, needs to realize that I'm doing well, that I'm 29 years old, and I am open handed and will accept gifts easily and find them, because I've always been willing to give them and I believe that everyone has a right to feel good about giving and sharing burdens, and not to feel outcast from the group because someone else feels like they want to do everything or that what they are giving is the wrong thing.  So be nice to each other and let each other have opportunities.

Jake and Winter brought me clean jammies and a new toothbrush yesterday as well as a gallon of tea, which I have already drank, much to my CNA's dismay.  ;)  That's what they get for wanting to measure pee.  I also had Heather come by this morning and visit.

I had to check again with the nurse to see if I was getting stool softener since it was becoming obvious my bowel movements were still weird, and guess what, they were.  So I had that removed and called up for yogurt to snack on.

Things are still looking good, and I'm being a good girl and eating nice and taking a lot of walks since no one is around most the time.

I love and appreciate all that you guys are doing for me here, you're each terrific in your own way, and each very talented and diverse enough that I'm blessed to have you all as friends and family.

Counts
WBC= 2.0
HCT = 28.6
PLT = 70